Books & MUSIC

nothing is ever

in vain



Courtney begged to matter. It was only when Rebecca showed up, beaten and bruised, in the ditch that ran between their homes that Courtney realized: she wasn’t the only one. Together, they built a bridge—a physical bridge to hide beneath, as well as an emotional bridge to take them back to the little girls within themselves; the ones they’d had to leave behind in order to survive. A murder, an adoption, new friends, a paralyzing accident, teenage pregnancy, homelessness, and the haunting echoes of years of abuse come together in the story that follows a young girl and her friends discovering that, even against the odds, nothing is ever in vain.

Courtney Frey’s story, based on the truth of her own childhood and young adult life, demonstrates that finding love starts with purpose. The author conveys through her own character her search for that purpose, as well as the desire to be needed, wanted, loved, and validated—and how continually seeking those things dramatically shaped her formative years. In a story about searching for self-love, enduring family dysfunction, surviving abuse, and fighting back, Courtney Frey reveals to the reader the secrets of her emotional journey and how she discovered that writing was, at times, her only lifeline.

One of the best books you will ever read!

I found it to be truly life changing, inspirational, and incredibly moving.

Vicki Drane

This book is spellbinding!

 Not, only does it rip your heart open and simultaneously heal you-but you find your own truths hidden within it.

Amanda Khristine

Courage through fire!

She has used the tragedies of her youth as a movement for love and restitution.

Allaina Daniels

A  profound experience.

What does one say about a book that changes your perspective on what it means to know that you matter and your life is significant in spite of the horrible things that may have happened to you.

Christine F. Anderson


After surviving a childhood and adolescence rife with sexual and emotional abuse, enduring conflicting feelings about the adoption of her firstborn son, and becoming a young bride—and a young mother, again—Courtney Frey navigated the precarious territory of early adulthood on what she felt was the other side of the bridge she and Rebecca had built as girls. But with memories of her past always just below the surface and her mental illness threatening to bubble over and destroy her present, Courtney’s life whirled out of control, careening on the edge of blissful highs and dangerous lows. In her real-life tale of being a birth mother, an army wife, and a mom of three earning her college degree, Courtney also shares her struggles with mania, married life, family relationships, parenting, career choices, substance abuse, and discovering her own strength and true priorities from the depths of her darkest hours. Redemption is a love story about an unlovable woman and the man whose refusal to give up on her aides her in saving her own life.



Over a decade ago, Courtney wrote the lyrics to Bridges, as well as, part of the chorus to go with her story and what she knew in her heart she had to do. It has sat in a purple crate along with the manuscript of her book until the beginning of 2013. The time has come to build the bridge and to let others know they are not alone.

In June of 2013, a producer in Nashville, TN offered to help Courtney breathe life into this song. Kevin Ward, Founder and CEO of MixCoach, who has been in the music industry for over 20 years gathered with a few friends and spent an evening laying out the vocals and tracks to Bridges.

We have so much love and gratitude for those who freely gave of their time and talents to make Bridges a reality!

Songwriter: Courtney Frey
Producer: Kevin Ward, kiloWatt Studios
Recorded at: kiloWatt Studios, Murfreesboro, Tennessee
Lead Vocals: Stephanie Sarsfield
Background Vocals: Stephanie Sarsfield, Janna Ward, Cindy Letson


For those facing deployment. Remember, it’s never Goodbye, only see ya later!


Songwriter: Courtney Frey, Soldiers Wife
Music by: Jason Spillman
Vocals by: Shane Klein, Army National Guard


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